Thanks everyone for the advise. Will try to keep it together for the rads...after all that's just another piece of the puzzle to recovery. My husband told me to stop reading since I keep busting out into tears when I read another story or outcome or learn something new. But I feel like I need as much info as possible so I know kind of what to expect. Didn't have rad/chemo first time around so this time it is hitting me a little harder. Knew the day I had the bio that it would come back as cancer again...not sure how, just did. I'll stay as calm and positive as I can and will fight like hell to beat this thing and hope that it doesn't come back again. Although from what I have read, seems the odds are pretty that good that it will. Thanks again for all of the advise.