hello again:

Well it has been just over a month since my dad has passed. My mom, who was his caregiver, does not want to be home. She does not sleep there unless she absolutely has to. She will usually come to my house, I live about 4 minutes away and hangout with the grandkids (i have two girls ages 11 and 3)..She will run home a few times throughout the day BUT will not stay at her house overnight alone. She actually prefers not to be there, even if someone stays with her. It is very hard to be there. This is where my dad was sick for 2.5 years, and passed. I have not been there in about a week, and that is a long time for me. My oldest, who was very close to my dad, hasn't even asked to go over there, which is very odd :-(.. I do not know how to go about this. Do I start bringing the kids over there and hang out in the yard, and let them play, like I usually would? Start new memories, but still sit around and laugh at the old ones? My heart just aches for my mother. They were married for 38 years, and she just turned only 56 years old. This was the only man she ever loved; her days went from being so busy with taking care of him to having all this "free" time.. to lose him and to watch him suffer, I know has forever changed us all. Thank you again and any advise and/or suggestions would be greatly appreciated and as always respected..

xoxo always
nicki