Hi John
Understand the panic.. but firstly do not going running away with the years.. don't put a time limit on your life.. one step at a time.. get the operation out of the way first... your dx is early you have everything going for you on that score.. when are you due for your surgery? I am due my third session of lazer surgery in approx a weeks time.. hang on in there.. you can come through this.. have you got a full team at a good cancer centre?.... keep us posted we will be with you every step of the way..
love and hugs
Helen