Worry can take the starch out of you if you let it. The best I can offer is to "take charge." Just say to yourself that you are in charge of each day and take what comes with an attitude that you will "take charge" of whatever decisions have to be made. Feeling like you're in control helps but I do understand your concerns. A good ENT will have a pretty good idea what he's looking at even before the biopsy so be prepared to listen. You came to this site because of your research. Please post your results and the good people here will give you a lot of help and support - if necessary. Hang in there.