Well, I'm 15 days out from my last chemotherapy treatment, and 30 from my last radiation. Pain is almost entirely gone from my mouth and throat, it was pain that stopped me eating and going on the feeding tube, before nausea or inability to swallow. I have very little nausea, and did all through treatment, so that was nice.

My obstacle to getting back to eating is like... it's more pychological than anything, I think. It's strange, and I didn't expect it. Things don't taste that bad, and the throat is working fine (I do only a little gagging, I have way more problems getting pills down than food), and it doesn't hurt... but when I start to eat it's just "Oh god, I can't stand this much longer." I don't know what it is. Does it seem so unnatural and wrong to be having stuff in my mouth and swallowing it when the lack of taste makes it seem so un-foodlike? I've been experimenting with yogurt, pudding, and egg salad so far. I think I'll try to going back to the mostly liquid diet I was doing for weight loss, before treatment started. Juices, shakes of almond milk/yogurt/flax protein, and thinner soups without a lot of bulk (asian soups can be counted on for that, I love miso soup). Things that are just drank down with little or no chewing. I've lost 75 lbs in 19 weeks, but I'm really happy about it. I'm still 300 lbs and have a dream goal of 175 lbs, I would be so happy if I could get to at least there. Dieting responsibly of course, with doctor consultation and approval.