Debbie, don't ever blame yourself on lying in bed all day without achieving anything. Don't ever give yourself pressure that you must live every day to the full. It is not realistic even for a healthy person. You are already very lucky to realise that the time post treatment is more difficult than the time during treatment and seek help from anti-depressants to release stress and anxiety. I was not on the alert and got myself seriously depressed 2 months post treatment. I was admitted to hospital for almost a month to cure my depression and that period was the darkest one in my past life. Just want to assure you that things can really turn better and you will soon reach the end of the tunnel. Be patient.

Karen stage 4 tonsil cancer diagnosed in 9/01.