Thanks Mark.

Your reply has reassured me a lot. I think that sometimes I expect too much of myself, and think that things should be back to "normal" already - when of course there is a different kind of normal since the cancer.Nothing is ever quite the same is it?

I am working through the emotional stuff, and am taking anti-depressants to help me. As you say, this is a very difficult time. Dealing with the surgery and radiotherapy kept me active and focused on the treatment. It's only when the treatment is over that you start to think about other issues.

I spoke to my cancer nurse today, and now have an appointment to see my consultant tomorrow first thing. At least having someone look at me will reassure me. I spent the whole day in bed today. I hate that - losing a day when I could be living life to the full. But the pain is so debilitating, and sometimes it is best to take medication and sleep.

I'm so glad that you are doing well so long after treatment. It gives me hope for the future.

I will let you know what the doc says.

Thanks again,

Debbie