Hello,

I guess I am doing this right...we will see if it posts anyway! I received my diagnosis today. Squamous cell carcinoma, moderate to well defined??? Something like that. I really will not know much more until next week when I am sent to a cancer center in a larger city. I have been doing my research basically on the web, and this site, which has told me a great deal more what to expect than I was told today.

Not sure how I feel...I guess I had prepared myself pretty much, and I know I am afraid a bit, but can't let myself show it or get down...my husband is a heart patient, my main goal is keeping him calm. Our children are young adults trying to get settled in life, and I don't want them getting torn up over this. And besides, if THEY are ok, I am ok. I want to stay upbeat, positive, and even find some humor (believe it or not). I think I can do this, but I found your forum, and after reading posts, I figured that this kind of first hand experience and support is definitely going to help me keep the "scary" down so I can keep smiling and keeping my family from getting upset.

Anyway, I am here and I thank you all for being here. Got a feeling you are going to be a terrific help to me, and maybe down the line I can help someone too.

jj