Shiela - I'm so glad you found this place! You will always have lots of support and compassion from people who can really understand. It's good that you have disability help and medicare. Maybe you could tell them about how you are feeling depressed. THe doctor might be able to give you something that could help. I think, in our culture, so often when people get together, food seems to be a requirement. When I visited friends in Mexico several times since retiring, I noticed that the big reason for getting together there was to play dominoes - any snack or drink served was secondary! And it was a lot of fun. I'm trying to get my family used to the idea of getting together without food being the main attraction. . . . they are not very enthused about dominoes, tho' but I'm working on it. Take care of yourself, Shiela - try to stay busy and come back here often to let us know how you are doing.