Glenn, I understand exactly what you mean because I have the same feeling. I always wonder if my illness had been fully treated by the radiation and chemotherapy I underwent. People around including myself are amazed at how well I have recovered from my treatment. I could go back to my previous job 7 months post treatment and now I go swimming for an hour after work every day ( on both very cold and hot days)without feeling tired. My husband always said that I look much healthier than before I was diagnosed with cancer. I told my oncologist that if not for the dry mouth and loss of taste, I would have thought that I had never had the big C in my life.The anxiety of recurrence is still with me but it has been gradually lessened as time goes by.I really hope that all stage 4 cancer fighters on this forum can be as lucky as me, if not luckier.

Karen stage 4 tonsil cancer diagnosed in 9/01.