I know exactly how you feel Sue. When I first learned about my husband's diagnosis - I was a nervous wreck (and still am on a lot of days!)..but what was really upsetting was the fact that I could not concentrate on anything - the hardest thing for me to do was to get up everyday and go to my job. Not only was concentration impossible - I was so angry at the people around me. I felt like my whole world was crashing down, and everyone else around me was going on with "business as usual". When it's you or a loved one of yours that is effected by this terrible disease - life is never the same again. But there are also many good days too - and I think a lesson that many people have learned here, and that I hope you will see too is that you should always be hopeful! I'm not saying it's an easy thing to do - and as we all know - there are no "guarantees" of anything in life, but as Rosie's story about Heather shows us - one must never give up hope. Keep it alive in your heart. I would say - harness that anger that you are feeling, and put that energy into helping your mom fight this disease. Keep her spirits up, encourage her, pamper her and let her know that she is not fighting this illness alone. A good mental attitude, along with knowledge about this disease - is the best way to help her out, and you'll feel better about channeling that anger in a constructive way. Wishing your mom and you - all the best!