Very nicely said Milton. Graywolf, you are going through so much right now - physically and emotionally, and so is your family. I know from a caretaker's point of view, how hard it is to absorb all this and please know that you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am a spiritual person too, and I know what the power of prayer can do - so please rely on your faith as a source of strength to help get you through. I firmly believe you will one day go back to work too - but this can be awhile yet. As folks have mentioned - everyone is different, and everyone heals at different rates. But I LOVE gardening as you do, and I also think this will be very therapeutic for you. Just keep doing what you love to do, and don't overwork yourself too much either, and before long you will have all this past you. Take care and God bless.