Hi everyone,my name's Greg.First I must say how thankful I am for this site. I've found so much comfort and understanding from reading the many post.I put my first post back in April under survivor stories (accidental) my wife corrected me but I didn't know how to move it.My surgery is set for May 20, check in on 19.Needless to say I so nervous I can't think strait.Doctor says he'll be doing a radical forearm flap, pull all my teeth(cause of radiation), says there's 20% chance that he'll have to cut and replace jawbone, he's hopeing its not too deep that He can shave it off. Also a small portion of tongue(hopefully), the cancer is in the front of my jaw behind my teeth.And also the removal of the 2 lymps. I guess I really won't know till after surgery if there's more.I've got so many worries that I can't even begin to list them. I'm a smoker and recovering alcoholic. I was a drinking chronicly until the age of 32 ( DTs, seizures, rehabs, nearly died more than once from seizures). I'm now 43 and sober for 11 yrs.My family thought I would never find the power to stop drinking.But through God I found that strenght.As scary as this cancer is, it doesn't scare me as much as the fear that I had when I couldn't stop drinking.One of the things that I have always worried is that my alcohlic background would someday lead to health problems.But today with my relationship with Christ, I feel that this will allow me to grow spirtualy, at least that is my prayer. I always wondered if I was faced with something really bad would I drink? I thank God that I have not had any desire to drink since I found out about my cancer.My main concern is my wife and mother, their taking it preaty hard.I've been married 9 yrs (only one wife) with 3 step children ages 20,17&12 and 2 grandchidren.I am the sole provider as well as look after my single mom who lives next door.My questions are how long is recovery, will I be able to go back to work, I just planted my very large garden, will I be able to tend it? Well I just don't know what else to say.Just pray for me and my wife (cindyE she also post here) and thank you all for being here.My thoughts and prayers Greg