I am tired of not knowing who this crazy person is that I live with anymore!!!!!
I am tired of the bizarre behavior. Of the paranoia, of the insults, of the mad fits of rage.
Tired of sleeping with one eye open because I don't know what to expect of him next.
Tired of the dr jekyll mr hyde that has taken over my husband.
Tired of watching him pack more and more of his belongings and him not tell me when/where/if he is going somewhere.
Tired of the insanity that is cancer.



CG to my husband, Matt. Dx June 2009 Stage IV Oropharengeal SCC right tonsil primary with distant metastases. Rad to neck- Surgeries to lungs- Every avail chemo - ran out of options Jan 2012, called for hospice help Feb 2012, at rest March 19, 2012.