Im very sorry to read about your mom's ongoing problems. Its so hard to watch someone you love suffer and struggle.

To stay positive, I help others. That is what has kept me focused and from worrying excessively. It makes me feel useful and needed. Since I no longer work, I have lots of free time and tend to let my mind wander. Trying to support the members here and driving cancer patients to their appointments for the American Cancer Society helps me to feel like I am a valuable person. Ive always thought that everyone needs a purpose in life, some people wander aimlessly and never find it. Thru misfortune, I have discovered that I am a better person now since I truly care about my fellow survivors. I work to help them avoid all the mistakes I made while going thru treatments. Having another person who really does understand what you are going thru can make allthe difference in the world!

Hope you are able to find your way into the light very soon. Im sure that little boy is an amazing spirit lifter for you! Babies have a way of casting a hopeful spell over you