I am always worried as I never know how religious a person is or If they are religious at all. For me I do believe in god -my religion is RC - but I believe god is bigger than organized religion - I believe that who you are, how you treat others, including animals, and the earth - is the most important thing - and going to church isn't a necessity... Serving god by being the best person you can be is more important that 75 hail marys. That said - I wanted to share something with you that may give you some comfort at some point. - losing someone you love is never something you want to do. My mom was 56 when diagnosed with lung cancer. She was my best friend, sister, and mom. I still miss her. She never had a lot, worried constantly about money, but despite the fact that she had little, she would always give food, money, rides to people who had less. She was also the neighborhood cat lady and had a love for animals - approximately a month before she died (at 59) she was diagnosed With six brain tumors, two of them egg sized. The dr. Told her to go home and spend time with her family. I would visit her a couple of times weekly, clean her house, maybe cook. She lived about an hour from me. I cherish those times now but mostly the good times. I was also working at the time so getting there wasn't easy but important to me. The night before she ended up in the hospital she and my step dad showed up for dinner. We were supposed to go to dinner at a restaurant with my daughters soccer team and my mom was to come. When she arrived I saw her get out of the car, I just knew she wasn't going to be with me for much longer. Little did I know that was the last Time I was really going to get to spend time with her. We decided to have a nice family dinner at home and it was great. That night when she went home she suffered a bowel obstruction ended up in the OR - the drugs they had her on stole the person she was for the next week and then she passed away from septicemia. I loved my mother more than anything but I was glad she died the way she did - quickly and without pain. I desperately would have loved to have more time with her but I truly believe god took her then because she was an amazingly giving person and he didn't want her to suffer. Perhaps it is the same with your hubby. God bless