Jayne - Try to avail yourself of all the helps you can and you have some good suggestions above. Stress and anxiety can really get to you if you let it, so when those "what ifs" come try to only allow a few short moments to devote to them. Everybody gets them (even us caregivers!) but do try to crowd them out with some more positive thoughts, like all the things that could go right. If you need meds to get through it, do ask your doctor about it. Everyone is different and reacts differently so keep in mind that you might just be one that gets through Tx with very little side effects!