Thank you everyone for your kind words. WHen my mom died, I felt like I lost my Mom, my best friend and my home all in one day but she was a very strong woman and I got her jeans so I will work through that. THis has just been such a life changing experience for me and I can only imagine what it is doing to Mike and has done to you guys. Mike is going for counseling and I will probably go as well but I have to work full time and take care of two little ones so time is an issue for me but I'll fit it in somewhere. You are all such an inspiration, I wish I could get Mike to get on here....Iknow you guys could help him through this......well, maybe someday I'll get him on the computer....lol