Thanks both of you - all of you - actually - I know this isn't an easy disease - and yes I have my moments - of "holy #*^%!" but for the most part I am good for now. I may at some point feel like road kill but I want to hold onto good for as long as I can! Charm you are an inspiration - thank you! Suzanne - you too - I honestly hope that we all can kick this disease in the deriere! I am prepping for my surgery - I know it won't be easy and I hope I am ready for the organized trauma that's heading my way! For now though I am just having fun walking my dog, and being with my family! And of course visiting you all here. It's amazing what the human spirit can endure.