The two weeks after my treatment were the worst for me. I think it may be related to the fact that unexpectedly, I had nothing to do to fight my disease. Prior to that I was going in every day and getting zapped. I was doing something and I had a specific thing to gird against (the hood, the treatment etc..) each day.

Suddenly all that was gone; I still had my eating issues and the weakness and tired all the time, but I did not have a concrete thing I was doing every day that I could point to internally to say to myself I was being proactive. It was a real surprise to me even though I was on this site every day and had been warned.

I found that as time moved on I was able to concentrate more on the new things I could do in my life to continue that proactive mindset that had helped me in treatment. I took my diet more seriously, I walked a bit more every day, and I worked a bit more every day. I realized the worst had passed and I needed to re-transition my life to the things that I had considered so normal when I had a normal life, but had fallen by the wayside. That took some work on my part. I found I had put a great deal of my normal life aside while dealing with treatment and reconstructing all that was not going to be as easy as I thought it was going to be.

Needless to say I had a new normal to work on that I had to try and knit together with my old normal.

When I realized that, it really helped as I now had a very proactive attitude about my future. I had a new mission that I could construct a plan around and execute.

I�m now almost a year post treatment and charging ahead with life. I know some here take longer, but I have noticed that no matter how long it takes, almost every person who posts here gets to the same point�Charging ahead with life�

It�s definitely a different life, but just a sweet.