Angelia

BUMMER. let me put in a word for old fashioned Grieving over what you have lost to this Cancer. As Brian noted, the worry and fear of recurrence never go away for many of us. Take some time to feel sad about this. Here is an excerpt from "Holy Longing" by Ronald Rolheiser
[quote]Unless we mourn properly, our hurts, our losses, life's unfairness, our shattered dreams and all the life that we once had but that has now passed us by, we will live in an ever intensifying bitterness. [/quote]
It's a deeply spiritual book but follows up that quote with the advice: Grieve what you have lost and adjust to the new reality...Accept the Spirit of the Life that you are in fact living"
I tried to skip the grieving and go right to acceptance but it turns out that I could not.
Finally, remember: sometimes a lump is just a lump.
Charm

Last edited by Charm2017; 08-30-2010 06:37 AM. Reason: typos

65 yr Old Frack
Stage IV BOT T3N2M0 HPV 16+
2007:72GY IMRT(40) 8 ERBITUX No PEG
2008:CANCER BACK Salvage Surgery
25GY-CyberKnife(5) 3 Carboplatin
Apaghia /G button
2012: CANCER BACK -left tonsilar fossa
40GY-CyberKnife(5) 3 Carboplatin

Passed away 4-29-13