Hi Kris. I'm so sorry you are going through this and dealing with it all yourself. I lost my mom to pancreatic cancer two years ago and it was so difficult to watch her suffer so much so I do know what you are going through. My mom also hated to take prescription pain killers because they made her feel so out of it. My mom's oncologist helped us to arrange hospice for her. My mom died at home under hospice care. Her only wish was to die at home. PLEASE reach out to any and all friends, neighbors, church family etc. You need to take care of yourself or you won't be able to take care of anyone else. Please keep posting, these boards are wonderful for support.