Wanda

Yes, it does sound Crazy to blame yourself. Hello - it is just as probable that John got HPV from his "previous sexual relationships". Several of the HPV studies suggest that the number of previous partners is a significant factor as one partner's HPV just does not seem to do it.
The good news is that HPV Bot is more susceptible to TX.
Relax and quit accusing yourself - John's cancer is NOT your fault. Like myself, it is his own immune system that has betrayed him because millions of guys get HPV without BOT cancer.
Charm