Thank you EzJim. Sometimes I don't know if i'm doing the right thing. She wants me to be out and doing things, she can sometimes tell how stressed I am. I wish i could hide it better. Only thing she wants is for me to be happy, that's what she lives for. I've always been kind of a negative person, and I hope she lives long enough to see me change and become a positive person, because I will, if she survives.