well with the "weights" off, andy was down 9 lbs in a week. the RO freaked out on him and told him to use his PEG (something he was avoiding) or she would put him in the hospital.

i was still working and getting him to all his treatments but decided to take a leave so i can take care of him full time. i would make him big pots of soft food (spaghetti, chicken n dumplins, etc) and ask him if he was eating, he told me yes but admitted he was too weak to get it or his throat was too sore to eat.

i am mad at myself for not noticing this. i only have 30 days paid leave so was trying to save it for when he got really bad and needed me full-time. he just finished his 4th week and now im afraid my time will run out before he gets "better".

i was trying to do some christmas shopping yesterday while andy was getting his chemo and had my first ever panic attack, i had to go to the bathroom and calm down and just cried and cried.

andy has 4 days off from rads, so i am hoping he will feel a little better with the break.
thanks for letting me vent...MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!
teresa