Thanks everyone for your support !! I understand what nellie was saying ..however I type like I talk ....NON STOP with out a Breath LOL..SO as you can see it would be horrible If I couldnt speak and trust me THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN !! hahah they wouldnt be able to find a way to keep me quite !!

Anne marie ..Thanks so much to you always..that is such a hard part of it..He doesnt know how to show it and I think that his working 2 jobs is his way of dealing
1 he is making money for his family which is what he thinks is important
2 he dosent have to deal with it if he isnt here.
this is how he knows to do it and If I sit down and think about it I can realize that ...Not always easy though ..because I need him more then that..specailly now.

An Update I go to the new surgeon on Fri at 315 for the 2nd opinion. saw My GP yesterday and he feels as if it has grown in the past few weeks,it was just along my jaw line ..now going more down into the throat, some discomfort and all and I think it is causing limited range of motion in turning my head. but who knows if I am just being paranoid. so that is what is going on.

I do have a question though , If this is cancer , would it be considered a recurrance or not? I had the surgery in Feb , would it just be that they didnt get it ALL? I am somewhat confused on that issue .