Thanks everybody, I just love you guys! Even as I write this now, my eyes are swollen & filled with tears streaming down my face. The funniest thing is that when I was 1st dealing w/my SCC, in 4/08 I never shed 1 tear. Now I am waiting f/ the phone call f/my RO (nurse) to take the next step. A good thing (in a way) my daughter got layed off & she could (again) fill in f/me @ my day care, while I go to dr. appointments. The more I am constantly feeling the lump, it is in the fleshy part of my R cheek, about the size of a peanut. If I do follow up w/treatment it will only be because of all of your support. I have lost my will. Even the thought of my son & daughter do NOT inspire me.