Charm..you always make me laugh. I guess I was under the impression I was Wonder Woman. When I was shaking on the couch I realized that is not so. This little sister is opening her eyes:)

Steve...thank you for your post too. It sure does help to know I'm not the only person who goes through this.

I am scared and it's been a while since I felt that way. I'm scared I can't do this and I'm not usually that way. I feel a little depressed too which doesn't help anything. Just knowing there are people here to talk to helps, as always.

I'm going to the doc tomorrow so hopefully she will give me some good ideas. I watching a show last night about a kid addicted to pain killers and he went to rehab and that was making me feel bad. My husband reminded me I had cancer and surgery and that is why I was given the meds in the first place and to take it easy on myself. The kid on the show was taking 40 xanex a day....guess I shouldn't watch stuff like that:)

Thank you again...I'll let you know my doc says tomorrow.