Thanks Cathy,

I'm glad to hear that this is a treatment regime that has reached the journals. I came through last round (30 treatments, once a day, with weekends off) with flying colours so as you say there is no reason to be too pessimistic - but it also doesn't help knowing that I will have worse side effects this time. I'm trying to balance the building butterflies with retail therapy and spending quality time doing things with friends and family.

Ultimately I guess I'm just one of those people who likes to feel in control all the time and because of this damned OC the future is well and truly out of my hands. I still feel like I'm caught in a bad dream and that at some point I will wake up and all will be back to normal.

Sue