Illene.
The day before my 50th birthday, I lost my very best friend of 30 years to Ovarian cancer. She was only 55 and always the life of the party. She helped me deal with my cancer even though she was dealing with her own. She was such a beautiful person and helped me through many trying times in my life. I really do miss her even today. When asked to speak at the funeral, I equated loosing her as to loosing my right arm. Cancer in any form sucks, you would think they would have a cure of some type by now. So sorry for you loss and I understand how it generates the feeling of anxiety.
Take care.
Anne.