Hi Angelia,
Sorry you feels so down. This is the worst treatment. Everyone has given you some great ideas, I can only echo them. I was realy against taking pain meds ( in my old hippi days I would have jumped at the chance!) I did start taking morphine , maybe in my 4th week, maybe 5th. It did help, stopprd the pain, helped me sleep. I was affraid it would be difficult to stop and I would get hooked. By the end of treatment I had both fental patches and morephine.It only took about a month to get off the drugs and I honestly can say needed them. The two biggest side effects were I could not read, too spacey and got quite constipated.

Hang in there, we are all pulling for you

Steve