Hello Shar, I agree with everything above and then some. You have to come first right now. Try to find some support anywhere. A friend, family member, your counselor. I think separating from a negative atmoshpere would do you good. You have so much going on right now. You need to find somewhere where you can rest and heal. I know that people around you can want so much from you- it's like you're not allowed to be sick or anything. They are just scared, but at the same time that can't be your problem right now. I hope things start to sort out, and you can get on with your treatment and positive wellbeing.

Sharlee, Hello I just joined this site because I have the C word and when I read your post I was horrified. Why would you think you had no where to turn? That man is dragging you down when he should be pulling you up. Put his butt out the door if you haven't already there are way too many womens groups that can help you. I had to leave a very abusive husband with four children and was scared to death. But it was leave or most likly be killed. Now I have raised my four children only to find out that I have this problem and guess what my daughters are there for me.I hope things have gotten better for you. I am not a real religous person but I am a believer. I know that God is watching over me and my family as I know He is watching over you. He will stand beside you and send your bully husband where bullies deserve to go. Brenda