Oh Mandi,

What a difficult time you must be having. I am not going thru as much as you are but I have had some difficult times. Venting here usually helps me the most because its between me and my invisible friends. Talk about it and get it out of your brain. I am not so good at asking for help.

I am sure someone who has experienced your specific problems will answer soon. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
cray