Thank you Jerry....I am probably over reacting but what else can one expect from someone with anxiety disorder going through this...I appreciate everyone's patience with me...I have not read anybody else being this nervous on this site...but then again they probably kept it more to themselves...I really don't have anyone to be nervous here with without scaring the heck out of them and I don't wanna do that...

thanks again for your patience...I do not deal with stress well...at all but despite the anxiety fears and tears I will get to the other side...