My surgery is the day after tomorrow. It will be a cornoidectomy as well as removing the scar tissue. They have to do nasal (fiber optic) intubation because I can't open my mouth wide--something I also hate hate HATE the idea of because you have to be semi-awake. And then who the heck knows if I will heal up right afterwards since it will be radiated tissue that's trying to heal.

I did have a dream last night that I was at my mother's house in Vermont (where I am planning to go to visit with my sister shortly after surgery as long as I know what to do for physical therapy--which II understand is basically using the therabite--and my ENT says everything looks like it's healing OK at the one week followup) and that I was talking to my sister and saying that I wasn't even in very much pain anymore from the surgery, even though it hand't happened all that long ago.

I wish I believed dreams really do predict the future but at least it shows that at least subconsciously I have positive expectations of healing well-which is something I guess.

I have been psuhing to get this surgery set up all summer, and now I'm just wishing I didn't have to have it!