hello all,
i havent posted in quite a while, it seems like my world has slowed down to just today, and maybe tomorrow, and sometimes just to the hour or so. Dell's cancer has been treated palliatively since february, so far he's gotten 6 rounds of chemo, (cisplat. and taxotere) and he's experiencing exhaustion and some pain (earache from radiation nerve damage).he is able to walk around the house, but sleeps alot as well. he's so stoic, and i am just watching over him, and crying silently, and sometimes just leave the house to have a good cry. i wish i could tell you how i dread the future, how i worry constantly how to give him comfort, and the doctors, who have been wonderful, are amazed how well he's tolerating all this. hospice is still in the future, and i am seeing a therapist for support.
i am grateful to have each day with him, however bad, but this month is tough because we have our wedding anniversary.
i dont know how i will be when he gives up..
i think i'm just writing to hear from someone who's been there.