Darrell, I want to be respectful of your often-stated religious inclinations here, so I am going to tread lightly, particularly knowing that you are going through tough times yourself, and your faith brings you great comfort and strength. But not everyone who is fighting this disease or any other malady thinks it, or the final results of it, are in God's hands, and not everyone thinks there even is a God. Even those that do, may not interpret him as you do, as all controlling. Having said that, remember that (If there is a God) he gave man free will. This is how he cops out of all the wars in which millions die, genocides, and other maladies that plague mankind.... essentially we do it to ourselves, and to those around us if we are the bad guys, through the free will that he gave us. After all he is supposedly a benevolent God.

The idea of free will therefore also incorporates a bit of decision-making, and choice on our part, hopefully from an informed perspective. Think for simplicity sake here just about making decisions about lifestyle and medical decisions. The choices that free will allow, could be wrong, as in