Ginny,

David looked great before !!! Eyes of the beholder thing. LOL

Everyone around me says I look great but compared to that death look I had, I'm sure I do. I look to thin in my mirror even though I have almost the same energy as I used to. I'm not as strong as before and when I do a full day of heavy yard work I feel at the end of the day, whereas before I was ready to go back out.

I could ride a 50 mile race, average 22 mph and go swimming in the afternoon to "relax". I can't imagine I could do that now.

I used to always eat healthy, now I'm a walking commercial for heart disease. I used to drive by pizza places, hamburger joints and fried chicken places and wonder what kind of idiot frequented those places. Now I curse if the drive through line is to long.

There must be some medical reason to explain why our bodies are acting like this now and as Joanna says one day the switch will turn on again.

Brian, if your out there I know you know or you have the best reason why.

Tim, I'm always blazing your trail because remember I finished my Tx 1 month ahead of you.

David

Age 58 at Dx, HPV16+ SCC, Stage IV BOT+2 nodes, non smoker, casual drinker, exercise nut, Cisplatin x 3 & concurrent IMRT x 35,(70 Gy), no surgery, no Peg, Tx at Moffitt over Aug 06. Jun 07, back to riding my bike 100 miles a wk. Now doing 12 Spin classes and 60 outdoor miles per wk. Nov 13 completed Hilly Century ride for Cancer, 104 miles, 1st Place in my age group. Apr 2014 & 15, Spun for 9 straight hrs to raise $$ for YMCA's Livestrong Program. Certified Spin Instructor Jun 2014.