Any rational human is going to have an emotional response to this disease and its treatment. I've experienced fear, anger, sadness & self pity and think all those are 'normal' in this circumstance. Talk to your doctor about depression; it's very treatable.

dx 2/13/06. modified radical neck dissection 3/9/06 multiple biopsies of upper airway and direct laryngoscopy. 1 of 47 lymph nodes positive for metastatic undifferentiated carcinoma (lymphoepithelioma). Unknown primary. Finished radiation 5/24/06.