You all are not scaring me. I'm like Minnie- I just don't do well being blindsided. Before John's 1st go round with this, he didn't want to know anything about the surgery and there were alot of questions I wanted to ask the Doc, but did not because John was always in the exam room. To be honest, most of how I learned to care for him after surgery and during rad tx. was from reading here and posting questions. I am going to move us back to Currently in Treament after our Feb. 1st presurgery meetings with the Docs. So don't lose me. Love, Amy