I am new to this site, visited two or three times before. I had 33 rad. treatments two months and one week ago. I thought that I'd be eating by now, I am sooo depressed and I'm sure that my husband must be tired of seeing me cry. I can eat mashed potatoes, fruit and sample other things but it doesn't taste right to me.I can only handle a few bites and I get a very slight taste of these things( a resemblance of what they should be like) but it's usually awful with a bad after taste lingering in my mouth. I can't taste 'sweet' at all, that's why I can't do milkshakes. They taste bitter to me. Will anything ever taste good again? Will I ever look forward to a meal? Will I ever go to a restuarant and thoroughly enjoy my food? I'm getting more depressed by the day. I used to love to cook and prepared big meals during the holidays.I was so proud of myself and everyone loved my cooking. I don't want to have to cook just from memory, I want to try new recipes someday and I want to be able to tell if there's to much salt or to much garlic, will that be possible? I'm barely surviving on boost and ensure now. I'm tired of forcing the drinks down just to survive. One of my favorites used to be a nice hot cup of tea in the morning, will I be able to enjoy that again someday or is it just a thing of the past? Please be truthful yet gentle with replies, I need something positive to hang on to or look forward to right now. I'm going to the doc's next week and I'm going to request an anti-depressant. I'm dealing with all the other issues of the rad like mucous, dry mouth, sores and burning sensations and all that but being denied the pleasure of food is getting to me. Will it get better???