Didier, Ed is so right - you must not second-guess your actions. Having been caregiver for both my mom and dad too, there are certainly things I wish I had done differently, but I am at peace knowing that I did the best that I could, and what I thought was best, at the time. We find ourselves put in a role for which most of us have no training. From where I sit, I think you must be applauded for doing, and continuing to do, a most remarkable job. The strength and compassion you have shown over this long, long, haul set you apart from many. Your parents did something very right that you have been so dedicated in caring for them. I didn't understand as a child when my grandmother would talk about people earning stars for their crown, but I do now and you must have hundreds!