Well it happened, after I spent 7 months being the caretaker to my husband and meeting all of his and my kids needs, and having a whirlwind summer, Erik went back to work full time and kids went back to school. We decided that it would be best that I don't return to work, (just to give the kids some extra security)and I found without anyone here, I was depressed,useless, bored, you name it. Here the time is to be rejoicing because Erik is well, things are returning to a new normal, and I'm more depressed than I've ever been. At first I thought I was just tired, needed to catch up my sleep bank for the last 9 months, but then it turned into a "full on, can't get out of bed, gotta be in the dark, don't want to live" depression. I was on depression meds already, so I couldnt fathom that I needed anything else, I just figured that this was the way I was going to be FOREVER. As the days, weeks went on I began to have darker thoughts, and was so pessimistic, that my mom (who calls everyday)finally called me on the carpet about my depression and told me that if I didnt make an appointment with my doctor (THAT DAY) that she would pull me out of my bed and take me to the psych ward. LOL
I went to the doctor (cause she wasnt kidding) and he doubled my meds, not to mention checked my blood pressure 126/112 gave me meds for that, and put me on a sleeping pill. I know I'm on a ton of meds, but I am feeling like a person again. Like an optimistic person, someone who has rejoicing to be doing!!