Joanna...i simply loved your post.I felt i had a positive attitude but it seems i still need to do some work on it.I do think about recurrance but probably just once in a while & not as often as i used to.

carol....as for the normal part,someone mentioned here as normal being boring & you never know the new normal might be better that the old normal!I would never have found the courage to pursue a hobby of mine as a profession before cancer....i probably would have spent my entire working life doing something i didn't really enjoy.....i think i like my new normal better...