Hello Jen

The first time I had it I said never again but of course I have had many since then and am able to relax more now. I know it won't take long and to hear the doc say "everything looks fine Helen" makes it worthwhile. I recall someone describing it as 'the scope and choke routine' on this site.

I guess that you are finding it difficult because you are suffering pain and discomfort from the tumours. Make sure you tell the doc that you find it painful. They may be able to increase the level of pain control in the spray.

I am glad that you are finding that your fear of cancer is decreasing as your knowledge increases. I believe that a positive attitude is of great benefit. I admire how quickly you have got to the business end of having cancer, acceptance is a big step.

Love and light from Helen