Please stop being so hard on yourself, Michael. You did the research and made a decision and nobody (not you & not 100 docs) does absolutely KNOW that one approach will be better than another. You take your best shot and keep fighting. You can do this. Hang in there! You are doing great.

Daughter of 75-yr-old Dad with tongue cancer (T3NOMO) surgery and rt neck dissec 4/27/05; completed 27 X IMRT on 7/01/05; recurrance w/ surgical removal of another SCC tumor on 10/7 (he's also nonHodgkins lymphoma survivor since 1/94)