Hi BOC Wife, to answer your question a few posts back on what I did to pass the time during the worst few weeks. Even though it was only 4 months ago I had to think about it for a few minutes.

My list may be a little different, but then again my wife says I'm not a normal person anyway (this goes back before the cancer!).

Obviously I read a lot, I also watched a lot of TV which I normally didn't do. I'm an 80's kid. I found a station that ran re-runs of Miami Vice so I watched those everyday (I actually remembered several of the episodes). VH1 has a series called "I love the 80's". I absolutely loved to watch that. It reminded me of my rebellious youth, but also reminded me that I was getting older. I also played a lot of Microsoft Flight Simulator on our computer. Even though I'm not a pilot, I got pretty good at zipping around the island's of Hawaii in a lear jet. I'm a Christian so I redicated myself to reading my Bible.

I was also fortunate enough to have a steady stream of friends who would call to check up on me.

To sum it up, I did anything and everything could to keep my mind off negative thoughts. For me personally it also helped that I had 4 kids that came home from school everday to occupy my time. I think you just have to break life down into some small components and just focus on getting through today, all the while knowing that there will be a day when things will be better.

I had a throat cancer survivor from my church tell me that on the days he felt the worst from his treatment, he would think positively that if he felt this bad, imagine how bad the cancer felt!

I hope the next few weeks go quickly for you!

Randy Z.