Chuck I know this is the hardest, isnt it. The wait. I am in the same boat as you are in. There is a spot but to small at this time. We will look into it again in DECEMBER. So what do you do until then. I say you LIVE. Hey it is going to be whatever it is rather we go crazy wondering. Crying buckets of tears. Bags under our eyes. This isn't going to change one thing. Oh I get down at times and I let my mind wonder off into that pity party that I just love to have. So far I have managed to pull myself out of the bucket. I pray that someone is there if I can't,,,,You darling wife, well she is terrified that the love of her life my be leaving her. I would love to tell her this, make all you memories that you can. Love each other now, don't spend time in another room crying. Spend your time on the couch holding hands watching a movie. Or take a walk, hand in hand. Talk about you fears together. You know what tho, this is how we should live everyday anyway. I have always done my best to. It gets to me tho, I am human, but I refuse to roll in it for too long. There will come the time when life is no more for me,,,cry then. You can spend time alone then. While I am here...Love me, talk to me, laugh with me,,,I am here....Your wife is going thru HELL just like we are...Hug her once for me...Tell her she is a wonderful woman. GOD LOVE HER and YOU...ALways Miss Vicki