About fear .... I remember being so afraid in the beginning cuz I read stories on the internet that sounded too scary. One night my heart was pounding and my teeth chattering. After that, I stayed off the internet (too bad I didn't know about this site). As it ended up, the bad things I read about didn't happen to me. For example, the doctors said that I'd get a terrible sore throat that would need morphine. Boy was I scared. And that never happened! I learned to only worry about today. If radiation was scheduled tomorrow at 9 AM, I waited until tomorrow to worry about getting ready. (I was really quite lazy!) God Bless You.