I know it sounds pathetic and really lame for me to be even posting this, when other people have really huge problems to deal with ... but have been waiting for my biopsy results now for five days and I have gone from 'dealing with it' to now feeling that I am not 'dealing with it'. I went into hospital expecting to have two biopsies done from two lesions inside my mouth on both sides of my face. I expected, from what the oral surgeon said, to have 2 stitches on each inside cheek at max. I woke up with a mouth full of stitches, all over the insides of both cheeks, from my inner lips to my jaw, and also my gums. It hurts far more than I was given to believe it would, by the receptionist. I still cannot eat properly or speak properly, and I was told that I would be 'normal' after about 4 to 5 days. I have lost my appetite completely and have to force myself to swallow liquid as it is such a chore. I know that when I see the surgeon on Thursday 14th I will get answers. I know that all I can do is wait. I am getting depressed thinking 'if it was no big deal why did he cut so much out of so much of the inside of my mouth?' I know that this is part of the course ... the waiting, and it is not cancer until the pathology report says that it is. It is the not knowing, and at the same time knowing that he did far more than he said he would do before I went into surgery and wondering why? I know that getting depressed is a bad road to take. I realise that I am a person who has always tackled life's problems head-on. Not being able to do anything is so frustrating. I know I just have to wait until I get to speak to the surgeon again. This just isn't what I expected.